你的回话凌乱着 在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽 甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯 我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌 假作没事了
时间过了 走了 爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐 你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着 你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒 还旋转着 要怎么停呢
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了 我都还记得
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒 还旋转着 要怎么停呢
met up with ALOT of frens to celebrate my 22nd bdae
first of all on the 8th Nov
an evening spent with Mr Lee..
met at Dhoby Gaut, wanted to catch a movie but the timing.. Cui !!!
so.. we took a cab to Singapore Flyer, walk around and explore it for the very first time.
there were Halloween Decos all around.
went to this Mexican restaurant Jalapeno’s Pepper
after the dinner i was served with Oreo ice cream cake 
bdae cake
my birthday presents..
a bouquet of nice flower n a Coach wrislet
then we went for our Flyer flight.
10th Nov an evening spent with my family then Sky
went Swensen’s for dinner follow by a ice cream cake
then was invited to watch Quantum of Solace at Marina Square.
presents for the day:
Tweety Bird Helium Balloon
Turquoise Flower Pendant Necklace from Diva
my brother n His gf bought me a Wallet from Louis Vuitton
First LV collection
Met Yiming for dinner at a Jap Restaurant in Shaw House
was indeed a Very good catch up session with him
went to shop for my bdae present wehn he decided to get this for me.
Madison Graphic Op Coach Bag
later that night, i met up with jer, Xian, XX, Syl n hanzhong once again for pubbing session!
that’s when i get my bdae cake (on my face too) and my gifts.
$100 worth of Isetan Vouchers (in $5 denomination)
and alot of other meals that was treated to from Vivian, Meishi, Clients etc….
Thank You Everyone!
as of 15th Dec 2008…
a new chapter of life begins ‘Quoted from Vincent’
With ZhenXian as my co-buddy/pacer.
a list of To-Do Things..
a list of Targets..
i shall work towards my Target n achieve my To-Dos…
On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.
This was the scene of ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb.
She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love.
This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife.
When we just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.
But I couldn’t help doing so. I moved Dew’s hands aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I’ve got something to do in the company.
Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife.
Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dews body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her.
I couldn’t imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious. When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint.
She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes. Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded.
I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. Ive got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didnt know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly. She didnt seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I’m serious.
I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!
At that night, we didnt talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart.
The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see.
To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had stressed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.
A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but
I was supposed to give her one month’s time before divorce, and in the month’s time we must live as normal life as possible.
Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didnt want him to see our marriage was broken. She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?
This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember.
You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.
I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.
I told Dew about my wife’s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.
My wife and I hadnt had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain.
From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, dont tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door.
She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadnt looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc.
I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didnt tell Dew about this.
I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.
She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried and tried a few but could not find a suitable one.
Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger.
I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it s time to carry mum out. he said.
To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly.
I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I wont divorce. I’m serious.
She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won’t divorce.
My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didnt value the details of life, not because we didnt love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry.
I walked downstairs and drove to the office. When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite.
The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until we are old.
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Usually when a couple is married, they tend to neglect and forgot each other’s intimacy and needs for concern, love and communication.
And it leads to: Marriage breakdown.
I am not saying with all these done, the marriage will not breakdown.
Always remember ‘Marriage is never a bed of roses’. You will need effort to sustain the marriage, do new things and show concern to each other. Love comes by, yet escape while we least expected it from our partners.
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once again, for those who have been constantly clicking on the link,
hoping that i’ve update,
sorry to disappoint u over n over again.
the past few weeks had been taxing.
Dad:
we have decided to go SGH for the op
on my birthday, we went SGH to meet Tumor Board Doctors, a family as a whole
decided on the date of admission and operation.
Admission date was on the 17th
Operation date was on 18th, 8.30am
early in the morning, we reached around 6.30am.
accompanied him thru out till he was pushed into the Operating Theatre
MeiShi was with me since 2pm waiting for dad to be out
but somehow we waited n waited but to no avail
Only till around 8.30pm then dad was pushed out of OT
MeiShi, thanks for being there with me, offering your shoulders to me when i was feeling helpless.
everyday after dad’s op, me n mum were there everyday
every single day
except for wednesday when i was down with high fever
Dad wad warded into ICA for about a week then HD ward for 5 days then general ward for 4 days
all in all, he was hospitalised since 17th nov – 2nd Dec
this also meant that we haven been working for abt 2 weeks
according to the doctors, all the cancer cells were removed.
Yeah!
during his stay we encountered different nurses, nice ones n evil ones.
at times he was innocently taking his med, other times he refuses and threw it into the bin
till he was discharged, he threw tantrums like a child
attempting to throw the med away, refusing to have the dressing on, didn’t want to have his meals
at his state, we cant help but be like a sponge, absorbing all his displease.
as of now when i’m typing the post, he’s sleeping.
indeed, he’s really like a baby.
does nothing except eats n sleeps except for toilet visits
he’s going to start his radiotherapies n chemotherapies probably only in January
gonna be another series of suffering for my dad.
has been sometime since i last blogged
this month has been a rather taxing one for me
dad has stopped working since october.
hence i’m paying for most of the bills.
for those whom already know.
they have did their part in trying to console me,
cheering me up,
being there whenever i need them.
for those who are still in the dark,
my dad was diagnosed with mouth cancer last monday.
when diagnosed, was already at the 4th stage
from that day on,
life’s been a turning point for me n my family
mum n i took 2 days leave from work to be with dad.
bro was still in Beijing,
sis was constantly in touch with us thru calls n smses for any latest updates
relatives came and go and we’re all busy playing host.
20th Oct:
when i receive the news from my sis that afternoon,
i totally couldn’t work
i went to one corner and cried my heart out
i broke down in front of my colleagues twice
they must be Uber terrified
what to do
the apple that they knew isn’t one who will just break down for no reasons
reached home that night my relatives were at my place
mum’s entertaining them.
went straight to my room and broke into tears again.
this time for a long time.
throughout this few days,
those who are always there to comfort me,
i appreciate!
MeiShi, Vincent, Darren, ZhenXian, Mr Lee, Shaoxiang, Sky
Thanks for the never-ending concerns!
the calls, the smses, the chat, the chocolates..
being at the last stage of mouth cancer,
dad has agreed to the operations
went to the hospital to speak with the surgeon-in-charge today regarding the details of pre & post operations
yet to decide whether to let dad have his op in CGH or SGH
will decide n will update
really hope he’ll get well..
really hope i’ll be able to continue to motivate him
really hope that he can think positive
really hope my hopes will come true
i’ve got a new addition to my piglet family!!!
Credit goes to Mr Lee!!!
let’s post some pictures of the new born!
:)
haha so cute!!!
he looks like he's thinking about something
i have to admit that i do have alot of weird friends.
first i have Zech who randomly calls to tell me where is he!!!
purpose: unknown
but i suspect is to make me jealous!
EVIL Zech!
once called to tell me he’s gg to satay club
then called on another random day to tell me he’s at sentosa!
RANDOM!!!!
now i got another silly friend who randomly bought me lunch
randomly left it outside my place n vanish into thin air!
was is me or the person?
was i scary or was the person shy?
OMG…..
Oh ya,
i’ve got some movies recently
Mirror on Sunday
Mamma Mia on Monday
House Bunny on Thursday
i would rate 4 stars for all three movies
Mirror is especially nice cz its pretty Freakish about how bad schizophrenia can be
the gored scenes about the jaws!!!!!
OMG
Mamma Mia is a super nostalgia of my JC times
rather my juniors cz we has a similar Musical using Mamma Miaas our Theme too!
featuring music pieces:
Super Trouper, Mamma Mia, SOS, Money Money Money, Thank you for the Music
sweet…
House Bunny is damn funny!!!!
oooouuuhhhhhhhhh Its freaking hoT!!!
anyway times for bed!
goodnite!
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